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i mean i doubt people are gonna see this, nor will i share a link with anyone, so if you see this im sorry to put you through seeing this, but Trigger Warning// Suicide, self harm etc ==please, i dont need any sympathy or anything so dont feel like you need to comment or anything it's ok i promise== for a long time, i've felt like i feel....something. i don't feel nothing, but i dont know how to put it. not sad, empty, depressed. just...there. and on the rare occasion i wanted to cry, nothing would ever come out and it would just fade back into a neautral state very quickly. however as of recent, the most ive been feeling is the neautralness or complete misery. i've felt really just awful the last month or so, slumping into a depressive pit that i'd been trying to fight. but things just got worse and i started to give up, so behind the scenes i've not been taking care of myself as well as i should, eating one meal a day or nothing at all. i cant stomach much food anyway, so i'd

#ShowYourHeart I've wanted to go / live in Japan for a long while now, it seems like such an amazing place to be in, I'm in love with alot of the things there. -ESPECIALLY THE CHOCOLATES AND THE MOCHS- Though, the language is difficult to grasp, still trying though! Have some deviations of Japan. I was fully tempted to order a bento with chopsticks, and some Japanese food/ingredients and take them to school but I held back.